[Preview] The keto diet: “I’ll do this or I’m going to die trying”
And that’s when I decided,
“I’ll do this or I’m going to die trying.”
Because at that point in my life I had
accomplished everything I’d ever wanted to do.
I had a PhD, I had a great husband,
I had two amazing kids, nice house,
a good job, a professional career
with a good reputation
and the one thing that I had never been able
to control ever in my life
in spite of everything,
was my weight.
And I always wondered what was wrong with me,
I felt like there was something different,
something biologically different,
that wasn’t known,
but I decided I was going to do it or die
trying because my quality of life was so…
It was just unacceptable,
it was so difficult for me.
Because of the pain I couldn’t go upstairs
and kiss my children good night.
I’d fix dinner for my family and go to bed
because I was in so much pain.
The children would come and kiss me good night
in my bedroom and then go upstairs.
And as a mom that’s just heartbreaking.
And they were young.
So I decided I wasn’t going to live that way,
I decided they deserved more,
I decided that if I couldn’t do it,
they were better off.
And I would even think about the mom…
I thought about my husband remarrying.
And I thought about the mom they might have
if I was just out of the picture,
a mom who could do things with them,
who could get for walks, and hikes, and swim.
So it was a pretty awful place to be.